A little bit about me

FROM “THIS I BELIEVE”

As a kid, I remember my mother waking up early every morning, and in twenty below zero Chicago weather, heading out to board the CTA bus for work. This strong woman had been through more than I could ever imagine.

I watched her leave my father because he was involved in drug trafficking. After some time she started dating and her boyfriend moved into our apartment. Jose expressed his affection for my mother by slapping and punching her. One day I jumped between his swinging fists. I begged him to stop…but I was too small to make a difference. Punched to the ground, all I could do was weep beside my mother. Our neighbors never responded to the sound of our cries.

Things are better now and my mom is no longer with Jose. Regrettably, I chose a path of drug addiction and crime. I lived and begged on the street, robbed people at knifepoint, and even stole from the purse of the woman I once tried to protect as a little boy. Eventually, the Cook County Department of Corrections taught me that the fast lane does not run forever.

I was given more than a second chance at life during my six-month incarceration in the Cook County jail. I received the gifts of grace, love, and forgiveness. As I worked through my recovery behind bars, I was humbled by the people who responded to the burdens of their drug-addicted neighbor. However, when a prisoner is released from jail, they are likely to return to a community that is not conducive to rehabilitation. According to the Department of Justice, seven out of ten released prisoners are rearrested within three years.

But by the grace of God, I was literally met at the prison gate by fellow Christians who welcomed me into the church. Life Church in Wheaton, IL chose to do the risky thing and let a convicted criminal into their congregation, into their Bible studies, and even into their homes for dinner and fellowship. They did not judge me, nor did they allow me to be lost in the vicious cycle of arrest and re-arrest that is often the American criminal justice system. These particular Christians knew they did absolutely nothing to earn God’s love, yet God loved them anyway. They knew that sharing God’s love was the true and right response to receiving what had been freely given to them.

As graduation approaches, I am truly overwhelmed by the love that radically changed my life. Because of the love I have received, I have been able to forgive the neighbors who ignored my mother’s cries. Because of the love I received, I am compelled to share that love with others. I have learned that humans are dualistically capable of committing great acts of evil and great acts of love, for I am one of them.

It is no doubt that my experiences as a victim of domestic violence and as a recipient of undeserved forgiveness and love have influenced my passion for social justice. Today, I urge everyone who has received God’s forgiveness and love to realize that they too have done nothing to earn it. Because of this, I believe it is not an option or special calling to share God’s liberating love with others. However, sharing the Gospel is more than just sharing words; it is sharing works as well. The story of the Gospel is one in which God chose to leave the good place of heaven and identify with all of oppressed humanity, by taking on their burdens and liberating them from the bondage and consequences of sin. It is this act that compels me to identify with the struggles of those who are oppressed by unjust systems in the world.

We live in a world with crying neighbors everywhere; where some cries are never heard because injustice is deeply embedded into our nature as fallen human beings from our largest to our smallest institutions. Injustice in the world puts people in bondage, but God desires God’s people to be free, that they may worship her.

Therefore, I choose not to ignore the muffled cries of the oppressed.  I choose to resist building my life only focused on my own family, and to reject any inclination to seek guilt-absolving ignorance or amnesia about the evils of this world. I seek to live in a way where I identify with the least of these and learn about their burdens as best as I can. I am no longer too small to fight back when injustice is present, nor do I fear the threats of any man who tries to stop me. I believe God’s love for humans grants them a unique value higher than any other part of God’s creation. My hope is for all humans to seek in the best and most sincere way as possible to eradicate human suffering and to ensure that the spreading of God’s love is not impeded by injustice in the world.

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***UPDATE: I must make explicit that my theological views in 2014 are different from what they were in some of my earlier posts. I no longer affirm the exclusivist theology of U.S. evangelical Christianity. In short, I am still a person of faith, a spiritual being who believes in the transcendence and the immanence of divinity. I do not espouse the dogmas of any one institutionalized religion. My conception of God is no longer the anthropomorphic God that is portrayed in some of my articles with theological claims. I shall clarify this at a later time, but for now, please know that I do not believe that God is a “Man with a Y chromosome” somewhere “up in the clouds” ruling over humanity (actually it’s been a long time since I stopped believing the ‘God is a man’ lie). If I must state briefly, my conception of God is not one of a “being among beings,” but rather one that “transcends theological theism,” as Paul Tillich states—God is the power of being. My theological views are very Feuerbachian (most of what we say about God are an expression of humanity’s best and worst wishes). I am Durkheimian in the sense that I believe there is a common anonymous, non-personalistic, effervescent force that drives the religious impulse in humanity. I am a theological Marxist in the sense that I reject all religious beliefs that posit our essential being onto “a fabricated reality of heaven (which will never be realized outside of the abstracted inner-life of the human mind),” and which decrease our ability to Live as Free and Full Human Beings, Here and Now. Still, my views are undoubtedly undergirded by the non-exclusivist, non-supernatural, ethical and liberation teachings of Jesus of Nazareth.

2 thoughts on “A little bit about me

  1. nuttpoem

    Keep on, my friend. Your writing is crisp, clear – and compelling. It’s obvious that you have a gift, and I am grateful that you are using that gift in the service of reaching out, enlightening us, compelling us. I like Duke Ellington’s prescription for life. “There are only two rules in life. Rule number one: never give up. Rule number 2: never forget rule number one.” All blessings, sacred and secular.

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